had team outing to watch casino royale. it was good alrights. wei, david, xianbin, leonard, minxun, amanda, brian and xin ying, mas and i went. the show was awesome. but BEN AND JERRYS after that was even better. hee.


minxun and i went to tiff's house to stayover after the show. staying over with girls are damn meaningful. we talked all night in the dark. talked about this and that. gossip about this and that. i think im the only one out of the three that doesnt know whats going on. sheesh.


having girls' talk got me thinking the entire night. and i realised something about myself though. though im always having eye candies and little crushes on people but they were never real. i've never really liked any of them what more LOVE. liking and loving someone makes you tired. and i guess yunhua has enough of it. i maybe like going gaagaa over this guy but thats only the surface. i bet you never know whats inside of me.

though im always the noisy one in the team but the truth is, i just want trainings and get togethers to be more exciting and fun thats all. if i could, i wouldnt want to even talk during training. i bet you never knew this side of me.

though i appear to be childish and playful or even wild but i'm just like everybody else, in serious situations i'm serious and level headed too. i'm serious when i feel that there's a need to be serious. i bet you never realise what i can be.




i never trust anyone easily.
cause there's this barrier that i can never cross.
i want to open my heart to someone.
but at the same time, its impossible.





because i'm afraid. very afraid.